I have walked many miles to make the journey within self.
When oxygen was thin and I felt breathless I wondered why I came this far.
All the madness of my city life seemed too far to be real.
I hated it.
I loved it.
I met so many different people that I didn't think that I will have a moment's quiet!
But I did.
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And I found you.
So close. So near.
And oh, so fresh.
I remembered how much I missed laughing out loud!
Remembered how much I have done in my life and that it is alright to not have done more.
I remembered my worth.
I even remembered to value myself.
I won over my own weaknesses.
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I encountered you intimately, like never before.
You were there. You were not there.
When the blizzard was biting into my skin.
When my breath was so jagged that I didn't know if I can take the next step.
When I met with the Kanchenjunga for the first time.
I encountered you. Intimately. Like never before.
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Where exactly were you hiding all this while?
I asked.
You said, I am but a reflection of all that you are capable of.
A woman who can stand her own ground.
One who owns her life.
One who wins over her fear and anxiety and all the doubts that gnaw at her spirit.
One who can deal with unreasonable clients with ease.
One who can start a task and finish it too.
One who follows through her new year resolutions.
And possibly who exercises daily!
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As I came back to the grind of the city life I miss you again.
You're complete, however.
With all your imperfections and your shortcomings.
Your mistakes and your misgivings.
I long to be someone like you.
You - who knows who she is and who lives to be free.
